February 12th, 2019
Mood: Anxious š
So the nonexistent snow storm had my imaging appointment rescheduled twice. The pattern of everything taking so long is really going to set in now and it has been one of the many difficult things to deal with through this journey. I am not a patient person and I always have to at least feel like I am in control, but I am about to discover that I have no control at all, at least over time.
I am sorry to say that I have never had a mammogram before now. I thought that the starting age was 50, not 40. When I had my annual checkup a few years ago I donāt remember my doctors office saying anything about needing one. Looking back I am sure they said something but I probably ignored them because of all of the terrible stories you hear. Now I am being told that I have to have one so my anxiety is through the roof.
The mammogram was not nearly as bad as I expected it to be. The tech was very nice and told me everything that she was doing step by step so I would not have any surprises. She asked me to do exactly what she was telling me and it wouldnāt be so bad and scary as I had imaginedā¦and she was rightā¦.the pain was minimal.
The Ultrasound was easy but she scared me because she went over to my lymph nodes and took a lot of images. It was then that I knew I most likely had cancer. As I tend to do, I had already looked up symptoms and information online so I was starting to get a good idea of what I could be dealing with.
The results should be at my doctorās office in 24 hoursā¦