Experiences

Post Surgery

April 23rd, 2019

Mood: Exhausted 😴

My surgeon was very pleased. I did very well and he got all of the cancer out. There is a pathologist in the operation room who tests the tumors and tissue so he can tell the surgeon if he got all of the cancer out.

They had a hard time waking me up but once I was awake I was really nauseous and my mouth was really dry. They had to keep giving me insulin to help regulate my blood sugar and to get my blood pressure and heart rate back to normal. Once I was in recovery I continued to have issues with being nauseous and disoriented. They almost admitted me for the night but they finally found a anti-nausea medicine that worked.

Today I am on pain meds and I have been sleeping on and off all day. Every time I sleep and wake up I have a headache and pain from the surgery sites. I also have 2 drains in that Matt empties and writes down the amount of blood/gunk that we collect each time. I ended up with a partial mastectomy but he cut in such a way that he will have a better plan in place for reconstruction surgery after chemo.

Experiences

Marking Appointment

April 22nd, 2019

Mood: Indifferent 😕

We went to see Dr. Schwartz this morning for my marking appointment. He re-measured and marked where he will be cutting to take out the tumors tomorrow, as well as where he will place stitches to mark where he will cut during my reconstructive surgery.

I was very surprised when he mentioned possibly being able to do reconstruction when he takes the tumors out. There are no promises but it would be great if he could!

I am scared but surprisingly calm tonight. Dr. Schwartz really put me at ease during my appointment today.

I will update as soon as I can.

Feelings

Dropping the Ball

April 16th, 2019

Mood: Stressed 😟

As if the last few days had not been stressful enough….

My surgery has been rescheduled to next Tuesday the 23rd. I don’t feel like going through all of the ridiculousness but basically someone was supposed to call me way before today to go over the medications that I currently take, with me.

It turns out that I am supposed to stop taking one of my medications 5 days before surgery. If I stopped today, I only would have been off of it for 3 days before my original surgery date….so yeah….I am disappointed that someone dropped the ball. I just want this surgery over with! 😔

Feelings

PET Scan & MRI Results

April 5th, 2019

Mood: Relived 😌

I have wonderful news! My PET Scan & MRI came back clear of any additional cancer! My diagnosis is still serious, but at least we know now that I do not have any sign of metastatic disease. I will still have to go through chemo after my surgery on April 18th. My oncologist said that it is best to continue with our plan for chemo treatment because I am so young and healthy. The chemo, along with radiation which will be after my second surgery, and the medication for 10 years, will give me the best odds of the cancer not returning in the future.

We will know more after my first surgery, when the pathology comes back from the tumors that are being removed. Once those results are in I will be going back to see my oncologist on May 3rd to discuss chemo drugs and length of treatment.

Experiences

Grateful

April 4th, 2019

Mood: Happy 😄

Hi everyone! 💕 First I would like to thank everyone who has donated to my GoFundMe so far. If you haven’t donated, please consider doing so, so that Matt and I can better manage the bills that we are responsible for as I move forward with this journey. Any amount that you can donate makes a big difference to us, so please do not think that it won’t help, because it will. {Link is on front page of my blog}

I have been overwhelmed by the encouraging messages I have received and the amount of people who truly care about me and what I am going through. Your love and support helps me through the bad days and good more than you know. I am riding a rollercoaster day to day with appointments, tests, etc…so knowing you are with me is beyond comforting.

Yesterday I had my MRI…what a strange experience! I felt like I was in outer space when the different tones were surrounding my head…lol! I was very grateful that it was an open MRI because I am not sure how I would have reacted if it was the tunnel. My tech was amazing and said I did well as I remained calm and didn’t move at all. I should have the results of my MRI and CT by tomorrow and we am hopeful that the results will be negative for additional cancer in my body and brain.

I also want to thank Gwinnett Medical Center for their excellent care and compassion! I have never dealt with a hospital from the patient side of things so I have nothing to compare my experience to, but so far it has been amazing. I have no doubt that my doctors are the best at their profession and they will do everything possible to get me through this difficult time!

Feelings

Surgery Date

April 2nd, 2019

Mood: Anxious 🙄

CT scan yesterday….MRI tomorrow….I should have all of the results back by this Friday. Crossing my fingers that they are both clear other than the cancer we already know about.

Good news! My surgery has finally been scheduled for Thursday, April 18th. I have never had major surgery in my life so I am terrified, but anxious to get it over with.

Experiences

Oncologist & Surgery

March 25th, 2019

Mood: Hopeful 🙂

My Oncologist ordered a PET scan & MRI after we met with him last Friday. I will have both scans next week. My doctors need to see if there is any additional cancer in my body and brain. I am not having any symptoms that there is, but the results may dictate my treatment. He is basically saying right now that having chemo after surgery will be best to make sure that it is all gone.

The biopsy results came back, I was right, more cancer in my breast. My surgeon went over the plan for my surgery with Matt and I today. Luckily, the tumor that was biopsied last week is in a position that will make it so he will not have to change his plan for my surgery, other than removing a larger area. He also agreed with my oncologist that chemo would be best after surgery. Once my chemo is done he will do my reconstruction surgery, then radiation after that.

Such a long road….but necessary to give me the best chance of becoming and staying cancer free.

Experiences

Oncologist

March 22nd, 2019

Mood: Scared 😥

My oncologist, Dr. Peacock, is very nice and explained a lot to us. As I said in a future entry, he feels that even though my cancer is hormone fed and chemo has proven to not be very effective, I should probably have it anyway.

I will end my treatment with radiation and I will have to take a prescription for 10 years to ensure by 75% that the cancer will not come back.

It is painfully clear that this will effect my life until the day I die. 😔

Experiences

2nd Biopsy

March 20th, 2019

Mood: Frustrated 😕

The biopsy was pretty easy all things considered, but the recovery has been rough so far. I am badly bruised and in decent pain. I thought about taking pictures but it is just too horrific. It looks like my breast has been beat up as it is black and blue from the top to all the way underneath it.

The results should be in on Friday or so, but I am not stupid enough to think that the mass isn’t cancer…I am sure it is. 😔