More Hair Loss

June 8th, 2019

Mood: Sad 😢

Even more hair fell out today. I have a feeling that it won’t be long now until I have Matt shave my head. This is heartbreaking to say the least, but it does mean the chemo is working, so I need to hold onto that! 😔



June 7th, 2019

Mood: Hopeful 😏

So true, but now I realize this more than ever….I told Matt tonight that it is time to make a list of the places we want to travel to, places we have never been; because we don’t know what the future will hold and I want to see and do as much as I can in the coming years.

Making Memories

Larry & Midori Visit

June 4th, 2019

Mood: Excited 😄

My brother and sister-in-law are here to visit for a few days from Japan. I haven’t seen them in about a year and a half, so I am super excited!

Our first day out we went to the Atlanta Botanical Garden which was awesome because Matt & I hadn’t been there in quite a long time, We ended up buying a pass for a year so we are planning on going regularly over the next year.

Fun at the Atlanta Botanical Garden!!

On our second day we wanted to go to Anna Ruby Falls which is located in Unicoi State Park but it was pouring down rain by the time we got there so we headed back to the house. The weather wasn’t a big deal as we had extra time to go through a few of the old pictures that I have from our family.

All in all a great visit and hopefully our next visit together will be much sooner rather than later. 💕



May 31st, 2019

Mood: Scared 😟

I went to the ER at about 4:30am this morning. This chest pain is something I have never felt before, very intense, very scary. I don’t remember all of the details clearly but they started with a EKG. I have had a CT, blood tests, EKGs and everything is normal. They are trying to figure it out. The cardiologist will be seeing me next, doing a stress test.

I am back home now. After all of the scans, EKGs, a CT, x-ray, etc, all coming back negative, they determined that my pain was caused by the chemo drugs. I am having my 2nd treatment next Thursday so we will talk to my oncologist and see if any changes need to be made.



May 30th, 2019

Mood: Hopeful 😌

I am still feeling good! I went to my oncologists office this morning for bloodwork. A few things are high and a few are low, but nothing to keep me there to see the nurse.

I am still not used to the short hair but I won’t have it for long after my treatment next week. There is no telling when my hair will start to fall out but it will, there is no avoiding it.


Random Thought

May 25th, 2019

Random thought of the day…it is really hard to drink 1/2 of my body weight, in ounces mostly water, every day! It is an essential task while going through chemo so I am figuring it out. My Fitbit app is helping me keep track so that has been awesome!

I am still feeling good today so that is a huge plus! Have a great holiday weekend everyone! 💕


1st Chemo Treatment

May 23rd, 2019

Mood: Hopeful 😌

My first chemo treatment went well today. We met with the PA for the first time and she was great! We had a few questions and she took the time to answer all of them for us. We also met with my oncologist who is amazing! He had the results of my Echocardiogram from last week and I have a very strong and healthy heart, so he was very happy about that.

My doctor walked us back to the treatment room which had 32 chairs in it and there were only a few that were unoccupied at 10:30 in the morning….we were shocked! They put me in a back corner which was fine with me because as soon as I sat down and saw the machine next to me I started to cry. It was another overwhelming moment were I realized what they were about to put into my body and it is very scary. Matt was there by my side and held my hand while I cried telling me that it will be OK.

My nurse came over and was yet another amazing member of the Center for Cancer Care team. She gave me a steroid, 2 anti nausea meds and fluids first. She chit-chatted with us while she injected the Adriamycin, there were 2 syringes, and she had to administer the drug very slowly to ensure that the medication was going into my artery that the port is hooked up to. Then she hooked up the Cytoxan which took another hour to give to me through my port from a drip bag. So all on all my treatment lasted for 2 1/2 hours so not too bad.

Once the treatment was over my nurse installed the Neulasta box which will automatically inject me with medicine tomorrow at about 4:15. It takes 45 minutes for this process and then it will beep at me and flash a light letting me know it is done. Once it is done I take it off and throw it away. Having this medicine in this form is wonderful because it keeps me from having to go back to my oncologists the day after treatment. Plus I am very relieved to say that I was able to get it for free which is amazing considering it costs between $5000 & $ 7000 per injection…by the time I am done with chemo I will have had 16 if them!

So here I am feeling fine 8 hours later….no side effects at all! We will see what happens during the next few days but everyone on my team is very positive that I will do just fine. 😁


Next Steps

May 17th, 2019

Mood: Anxious 😏

Quick update…I saw my surgeon on Wednesday and he said that everything looks great concerning my surgery site. We scheduled the surgery to install my port for chemo which will be done today, Friday. It is a quick 30 minute surgery and it sounds like it is very routine, so I am not having as much anxiety about it as I did with the first surgery, which was much longer and far more difficult.

I had an Echocardiogram on Thursday and the results will be back either tomorrow or Monday. I am not expecting anything out of the ordinary in the results. The tech said that when I held my breath for her the chambers in my heart were opening big and strong and closing normally. It was pretty cool to see and hear my heart beating on the screen.


Health Directive

May 14th, 2019

Mood: Exhausted 😩

Another night of thinking about things….

I am thinking that it would be smart to call the hospital tomorrow and ask about a health directive, whatever is required in GA. I would ask my Dad but I don’t want to scare him with the fact that I am thinking about it.After really talking to Matt, I understand that he has had the same thoughts about the cancer killing me, as I have. It could come back at any time or there could be cells as my oncologist explained that are too small to detect. I am starting chemo soon and I have a positive outlook but I can’t help but notice that nothing has gone as planned since all of this started.I want to take steps now, if I can, to make things easier for Matt should something happen to me or if I end up in the hospital.

Heavy stuff, but things I need to think about if not act on some time soon.