I Have Cancer

February 28th, 2019

Mood: Terrified

Matt and I got the call with the results from my biospy.

Cancer in all 3 masses.

Dr. Schwartz’s office will call me tomorrow with an appointment for a Mammogram at the hospital. The hospital will not accept the imaging from the office I went to via my doctor.

Now we are waiting for the results to come in that will tell us what type of cancer I have and what stage, that should be in about 5 days….I am scared!

Biopsy

February 26th, 2019

Mood: Worried

The biopsy was uncomfortable and at times painful, but Dr. Schwartz told me everything that he was doing step by step. He had a mini ultrasound machine that he used himself, not his assistant.

As he was working to find each mass he told me that I have 3 masses, 1 in my breast and 2 in my lymph nodes. He is very concerned with one of the masses that is in one of my lymph nodes and he had a hard time getting to it.

Once he was done with the biopsy he looked at Matt and I and said, “this is cancer”. I was once again stunned even though he said what I already knew, but now I am hearing the C word and things were getting so serious very quickly. The biopsy results will tell us what type and stage.

Now he is talking about surgery and chemotherapy. Chemotherapy before surgery, but still not sure without the results in hand. The results will be back by Thursday of this week.

Breast Cancer Specialist

February 25th, 2019

Mood: Anxious

I had my consultation with my new doctor and surgeon…Dr. Schwartz at Gwinnett Medical Center today. I can’t even tell you how scared I am to have to go through this next step. I looked up Dr. Schwartz online and his credentials are very impressive. He is the only breast specialist in Gwinnett county.

He did a quick ultrasound and said I needed to come back the next day for a biopsy. He talked about surgery and radiation but he isn’t sure if that will be the case and we won’t know until the biopsy results are back.

MRI Imaging Appointment

February 12th, 2019

Mood: Anxious

So the nonexistent snow storm had my imaging appointment rescheduled twice. The pattern of everything taking so long is really going to set in now and it has been one of the many difficult things to deal with through this journey. I am not a patient person and I always have to at least feel like I am in control, but I am about to discover that I have no control at all, at least over time.

I am sorry to say that I have never had a mammogram before now. I thought that the starting age was 50, not 40. When I had my annual checkup a few years ago I don’t remember my doctors office saying anything about needing one. Looking back I am sure they said something but I probably ignored them because of all of the terrible stories you hear. Now I am being told that I have to have one so my anxiety is through the roof.

The mammogram was not nearly as bad as I expected it to be. The tech was very nice and told me everything that she was doing step by step so I would not have any surprises. She asked me to do exactly what she was telling me and it wouldn’t be so bad and scary as I had imagined…and she was right….the pain was minimal.

The Ultrasound was easy but she scared me because she went over to my lymph nodes and took a lot of images. It was then that I knew I most likely had cancer. As I tend to do, I had already looked up symptoms and information online so I was starting to get a good idea of what I could be dealing with.

The results should be at my doctor’s office in 24 hours…

It’s Time to See My Doctor

February 1st, 2019

Mood: Scared

Before Matt and I got married I had a small lump that I found during a self exam. I went to my gynecologist to see what it was not really knowing what to expect. I was too young to get a mammogram but she felt strongly that it was just a cyst and it would disappear on its own and it did. All of these years later I am facing the same problem but it is different this time. There is something hard next to the small lump and my skin has sunken in a little on the surface of my breast.

I went to see my doctor and she confirmed that there is reason to be concerned about the lump I found. Now we need images so we can see what this lump is exactly.

So, my doctor referred me to MRI Imaging to have a Mammogram and an Ultrasound done as she agreed that the lump needs further examination.

This my greatest fear…Cancer…

The Beginning

Mood: Worried

A dear friend of mine passed away from breast cancer in October of 2017. I remember her urging her friends on Facebook to not only get a Mammogram every year, but to also do a self exam every month. She very well may have saved my life….

Theresa, the most loving, caring, giving woman I have ever known…RIP my sweet friend

I don’t have the exact date but around the end of January during a self exam I found a small lump and something hard next to the lump, in my breast. I called my doctor and made an appointment immediately….that was the start of everything.

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