Our Wedding Anniversary

Today is our 16th wedding anniversary and I can’t help but look back at this time last year as it was a major turning point in my breast cancer journey. The day after our 15th wedding anniversary last year I started aggressive chemotherapy. I had already gone through my first surgery to remove the cancer and my second surgery to place the port in my chest for my chemotherapy treatments, but little did I know at the time that the most difficult fight of my life was just beginning.

Everything was so overwhelming and it felt like I was floating through all of the doctors appointments, surgeries, scans and tests in a daze. The day of my first chemotherapy treatment is somewhat of a blur now but I do remember sitting down in the chair in the treatment room and starting to cry. I was terrified as I realized that the nurse was about to pump horrible, destructive drugs into my body.

My husband looked at me and asked “Why are you crying?” I said, “It’s so overwhelming knowing what is about to happen to me, what I am about to go through.” He came and sat closer to me and held my hand, trying to comfort me. He had already been through countless appointments, surgeries, etc….with me, but he has never wavered. He has been by my side through many tears, pain, sleepless nights and so many other stages of fighting aggressive breast cancer.

I love you sweetie! Happy Anniversary and thank you for being my rock during the most difficult fight of my life! πŸ’•

16 years and counting! πŸ’•

Cure Magazine

Early on in my breast cancer journey I heard about a free magazine for cancer patients, survivors and caregivers called “cure.” I received my first issue around the time I had my 2nd chemo treatment in early June and I found this magazine to be so helpful in understanding more about cancer. Today I received this issue and I wish I had this early on….there is some great information in this issue for newly diagnosed cancer patients.

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PET Scan & MRI Results

April 5th, 2019

Mood: Relived 😌

I have wonderful news! My PET Scan & MRI came back clear of any additional cancer! My diagnosis is still serious, but at least we know now that I do not have any sign of metastatic disease. I will still have to go through chemo after my surgery on April 18th. My oncologist said that it is best to continue with our plan for chemo treatment because I am so young and healthy. The chemo, along with radiation which will be after my second surgery, and the medication for 10 years, will give me the best odds of the cancer not returning in the future.

We will know more after my first surgery, when the pathology comes back from the tumors that are being removed. Once those results are in I will be going back to see my oncologist on May 3rd to discuss chemo drugs and length of treatment.

Grateful

April 4th, 2019

Mood: Happy πŸ˜„

Hi everyone! πŸ’• First I would like to thank everyone who has donated to my GoFundMe so far. If you haven’t donated, please consider doing so, so that Matt and I can better manage the bills that we are responsible for as I move forward with this journey. Any amount that you can donate makes a big difference to us, so please do not think that it won’t help, because it will. {Link is on front page of my blog}

I have been overwhelmed by the encouraging messages I have received and the amount of people who truly care about me and what I am going through. Your love and support helps me through the bad days and good more than you know. I am riding a rollercoaster day to day with appointments, tests, etc…so knowing you are with me is beyond comforting.

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Surgery Date

April 2nd, 2019

Mood: Anxious πŸ™„

CT scan yesterday….MRI tomorrow….I should have all of the results back by this Friday. Crossing my fingers that they are both clear other than the cancer we already know about.

Good news! My surgery has finally been scheduled for Thursday, April 18th. I have never had major surgery in my life so I am terrified, but anxious to get it over with.

Oncologist & Surgery

March 25th, 2019

Mood: Hopeful πŸ™‚

My Oncologist ordered a PET scan & MRI after we met with him last Friday. I will have both scans next week. My doctors need to see if there is any additional cancer in my body and brain. I am not having any symptoms that there is, but the results may dictate my treatment. He is basically saying right now that having chemo after surgery will be best to make sure that it is all gone.

The biopsy results came back, I was right, more cancer in my breast. My surgeon went over the plan for my surgery with Matt and I today. Luckily, the tumor that was biopsied last week is in a position that will make it so he will not have to change his plan for my surgery, other than removing a larger area. He also agreed with my oncologist that chemo would be best after surgery. Once my chemo is done he will do my reconstruction surgery, then radiation after that.

Such a long road….but necessary to give me the best chance of becoming and staying cancer free.