Experiences

Shaving My Head

June 9th, 2019

Mood: Sad 😭

My sweet, amazing husband shaved my head this morning. I knew it was time when I woke up because the hair on the back of my head was hurting. I don’t know how else to describe it…

I couldn’t watch while he was shaving my head and I haven’t been able to bring myself to look in a mirror yet. We agreed that other than my first surgery, this has been the most difficult and traumatic step of my journey.

I am numb but OK…

Experiences

More Hair Loss

June 8th, 2019

Mood: Sad 😢

Even more hair fell out today. I have a feeling that it won’t be long now until I have Matt shave my head. This is heartbreaking to say the least, but it does mean the chemo is working, so I need to hold onto that! 😔

Thoughts

Life

June 7th, 2019

Mood: Hopeful 😏

So true, but now I realize this more than ever….I told Matt tonight that it is time to make a list of the places we want to travel to, places we have never been; because we don’t know what the future will hold and I want to see and do as much as I can in the coming years.

Feelings

PET Scan & MRI Results

April 5th, 2019

Mood: Relived 😌

I have wonderful news! My PET Scan & MRI came back clear of any additional cancer! My diagnosis is still serious, but at least we know now that I do not have any sign of metastatic disease. I will still have to go through chemo after my surgery on April 18th. My oncologist said that it is best to continue with our plan for chemo treatment because I am so young and healthy. The chemo, along with radiation which will be after my second surgery, and the medication for 10 years, will give me the best odds of the cancer not returning in the future.

We will know more after my first surgery, when the pathology comes back from the tumors that are being removed. Once those results are in I will be going back to see my oncologist on May 3rd to discuss chemo drugs and length of treatment.

Experiences

Oncologist & Surgery

March 25th, 2019

Mood: Hopeful 🙂

My Oncologist ordered a PET scan & MRI after we met with him last Friday. I will have both scans next week. My doctors need to see if there is any additional cancer in my body and brain. I am not having any symptoms that there is, but the results may dictate my treatment. He is basically saying right now that having chemo after surgery will be best to make sure that it is all gone.

The biopsy results came back, I was right, more cancer in my breast. My surgeon went over the plan for my surgery with Matt and I today. Luckily, the tumor that was biopsied last week is in a position that will make it so he will not have to change his plan for my surgery, other than removing a larger area. He also agreed with my oncologist that chemo would be best after surgery. Once my chemo is done he will do my reconstruction surgery, then radiation after that.

Such a long road….but necessary to give me the best chance of becoming and staying cancer free.

Experiences

Oncologist

March 22nd, 2019

Mood: Scared 😥

My oncologist, Dr. Peacock, is very nice and explained a lot to us. As I said in a future entry, he feels that even though my cancer is hormone fed and chemo has proven to not be very effective, I should probably have it anyway.

I will end my treatment with radiation and I will have to take a prescription for 10 years to ensure by 75% that the cancer will not come back.

It is painfully clear that this will effect my life until the day I die. 😔