Experiences

Rough Day

April 27th, 2019

Mood: Exhausted 😴

Today was a bit rough. I have been nauseous on and off. I have been a little irritable, mainly because I am tired of the bandages and drains. Matt has been wonderful with emptying my drains and recording the amount of icky, that’s a medical term you know…🀣, that has collected so we can give that information to my surgeon on Monday. I am barely collecting anything in the drains now, so I am hoping my bandages will get much smaller and the drains will be removed when we see him.

I am still going to sleep at random times even though I have substantially reduced the amount of painkillers I am taking. Besides a few moments of dozing off, today I took a long nap, almost 2 hours and I was shocked when I woke up at almost 9pm.

I have received a few messages from people that want me to call them back. Please give me time as I am resting and sleeping as much as I can and a phone conversation can wear me out. I am updating on here as I can….Love you all! πŸ’•

Experiences

Marking Appointment

April 22nd, 2019

Mood: Indifferent πŸ˜•

We went to see Dr. Schwartz this morning for my marking appointment. He re-measured and marked where he will be cutting to take out the tumors tomorrow, as well as where he will place stitches to mark where he will cut during my reconstructive surgery.

I was very surprised when he mentioned possibly being able to do reconstruction when he takes the tumors out. There are no promises but it would be great if he could!

I am scared but surprisingly calm tonight. Dr. Schwartz really put me at ease during my appointment today.

I will update as soon as I can.

Feelings

Dropping the Ball

April 16th, 2019

Mood: Stressed 😟

As if the last few days had not been stressful enough….

My surgery has been rescheduled to next Tuesday the 23rd. I don’t feel like going through all of the ridiculousness but basically someone was supposed to call me way before today to go over the medications that I currently take, with me.

It turns out that I am supposed to stop taking one of my medications 5 days before surgery. If I stopped today, I only would have been off of it for 3 days before my original surgery date….so yeah….I am disappointed that someone dropped the ball. I just want this surgery over with! πŸ˜”

Feelings

PET Scan & MRI Results

April 5th, 2019

Mood: Relived 😌

I have wonderful news! My PET Scan & MRI came back clear of any additional cancer! My diagnosis is still serious, but at least we know now that I do not have any sign of metastatic disease. I will still have to go through chemo after my surgery on April 18th. My oncologist said that it is best to continue with our plan for chemo treatment because I am so young and healthy. The chemo, along with radiation which will be after my second surgery, and the medication for 10 years, will give me the best odds of the cancer not returning in the future.

We will know more after my first surgery, when the pathology comes back from the tumors that are being removed. Once those results are in I will be going back to see my oncologist on May 3rd to discuss chemo drugs and length of treatment.

Experiences

Grateful

April 4th, 2019

Mood: Happy πŸ˜„

Hi everyone! πŸ’• First I would like to thank everyone who has donated to my GoFundMe so far. If you haven’t donated, please consider doing so, so that Matt and I can better manage the bills that we are responsible for as I move forward with this journey. Any amount that you can donate makes a big difference to us, so please do not think that it won’t help, because it will. {Link is on front page of my blog}

I have been overwhelmed by the encouraging messages I have received and the amount of people who truly care about me and what I am going through. Your love and support helps me through the bad days and good more than you know. I am riding a rollercoaster day to day with appointments, tests, etc…so knowing you are with me is beyond comforting.

Yesterday I had my MRI…what a strange experience! I felt like I was in outer space when the different tones were surrounding my head…lol! I was very grateful that it was an open MRI because I am not sure how I would have reacted if it was the tunnel. My tech was amazing and said I did well as I remained calm and didn’t move at all. I should have the results of my MRI and CT by tomorrow and we am hopeful that the results will be negative for additional cancer in my body and brain.

I also want to thank Gwinnett Medical Center for their excellent care and compassion! I have never dealt with a hospital from the patient side of things so I have nothing to compare my experience to, but so far it has been amazing. I have no doubt that my doctors are the best at their profession and they will do everything possible to get me through this difficult time!

Feelings

Surgery Date

April 2nd, 2019

Mood: Anxious πŸ™„

CT scan yesterday….MRI tomorrow….I should have all of the results back by this Friday. Crossing my fingers that they are both clear other than the cancer we already know about.

Good news! My surgery has finally been scheduled for Thursday, April 18th. I have never had major surgery in my life so I am terrified, but anxious to get it over with.

Experiences

Biopsy

February 26th, 2019

Mood: Worried πŸ˜₯

The biopsy was uncomfortable and at times painful, but Dr. Schwartz told me everything that he was doing step by step. He had a mini ultrasound machine that he used himself, not his assistant.

As he was working to find each mass he told me that I have 3 masses, 1 in my breast and 2 in my lymph nodes. He is very concerned with one of the masses that is in one of my lymph nodes and he had a hard time getting to it.

Once he was done with the biopsy he looked at Matt and I and said, “this is cancer”. I was once again stunned even though he said what I already knew, but now I am hearing the C word and things were getting so serious very quickly. The biopsy results will tell us what type and stage.

Now he is talking about surgery and chemotherapy. Chemotherapy before surgery, but still not sure without the results in hand. The results will be back by Thursday of this week.

Experiences

Breast Cancer Specialist

February 25th, 2019

Mood: Anxious πŸ™„

I had my consultation with my new doctor and surgeon…Dr. Schwartz at Gwinnett Medical Center today. I can’t even tell you how scared I am to have to go through this next step. I looked up Dr. Schwartz online and his credentials are very impressive. He is the only breast specialist in Gwinnett county.

He did a quick ultrasound and said I needed to come back the next day for a biopsy. He talked about surgery and radiation but he isn’t sure if that will be the case and we won’t know until the biopsy results are back.