February 25th, 2019
Mood: Anxious 🙄
I had my consultation with my new doctor and surgeon…Dr. Schwartz at Gwinnett Medical Center today. I can’t even tell you how scared I am to have to go through this next step. I looked up Dr. Schwartz online and his credentials are very impressive. He is the only breast specialist in Gwinnett county.
He did a quick ultrasound and said I needed to come back the next day for a biopsy. He talked about surgery and radiation but he isn’t sure if that will be the case and we won’t know until the biopsy results are back.
February 12th, 2019
Mood: Anxious 😟
So the nonexistent snow storm had my imaging appointment rescheduled twice. The pattern of everything taking so long is really going to set in now and it has been one of the many difficult things to deal with through this journey. I am not a patient person and I always have to at least feel like I am in control, but I am about to discover that I have no control at all, at least over time.
I am sorry to say that I have never had a mammogram before now. I thought that the starting age was 50, not 40. When I had my annual checkup a few years ago I don’t remember my doctors office saying anything about needing one. Looking back I am sure they said something but I probably ignored them because of all of the terrible stories you hear. Now I am being told that I have to have one so my anxiety is through the roof.
The mammogram was not nearly as bad as I expected it to be. The tech was very nice and told me everything that she was doing step by step so I would not have any surprises. She asked me to do exactly what she was telling me and it wouldn’t be so bad and scary as I had imagined…and she was right….the pain was minimal.
The Ultrasound was easy but she scared me because she went over to my lymph nodes and took a lot of images. It was then that I knew I most likely had cancer. As I tend to do, I had already looked up symptoms and information online so I was starting to get a good idea of what I could be dealing with.
The results should be at my doctor’s office in 24 hours…
February 1st, 2019
Mood: Scared 😢
Before Matt and I got married I had a small lump that I found during a self exam. I went to my gynecologist to see what it was not really knowing what to expect. I was too young to get a mammogram but she felt strongly that it was just a cyst and it would disappear on its own and it did. All of these years later I am facing the same problem but it is different this time. There is something hard next to the small lump and my skin has sunken in a little on the surface of my breast.
I went to see my doctor and she confirmed that there is reason to be concerned about the lump I found. Now we need images so we can see what this lump is exactly.
So, my doctor referred me to MRI Imaging to have a Mammogram and an Ultrasound done as she agreed that the lump needs further examination.
This my greatest fear…Cancer…