Thoughts

Day to Day Thoughts

August 7th, 2019

Mood: Anxious 😟

My thoughts can be overwhelming at times….

Work is an excellent distraction. I am thankful every day that I work from home and that I still have my job. I love my job and in many ways it is helping me “keep it together” from day to day.

I try my best to have as many normal days as possible but it isn’t easy because I know that my body is fighting hard and that I am sick with cancer. Most days I try to forget that I have another treatment coming up, that I am sick, that I am fighting cancer. To most I look like I am brave and dealing with all of this well but I am not as brave as you think.

I have cancer….those 3 words still make me cry when I say them outloud or even think them. I still cry when I look in the mirror and see that all of my hair is gone, that my left breast is deformed. I cry often, if that makes me weak then so be it…I am doing the best I can.

This is a terrible and difficult journey, one that I didn’t ask for, one that isn’t in my family history and one that will change my life forever…..

Experiences

Taxol #3

August 1st, 2019

Mood: Hopeful 😏

I had some issues with the Benadryl last week. Not only did it make me sleepy, it made me jittery as well. I mentioned what happened to the PA and she cut my dose in half. I was not jittery this time so that was a huge improvement.

Taxol treatment #3…..9 to go!

Making Memories

A Beautiful Day

July 27th, 2019

Mood: Happy 😁

It’s a beautiful day!! Out and about with sweetie doing various things today. I am loving my new wig…light purple, light pink, blonde with medium brown…it is gorgeous and so soft! 💕

Experiences

Exhausted

July 7th, 2019

Mood: Exhausted 😫

Matt & I went to our favorite park this morning and walked 1.75 miles in about 34 minutes…it was exhausting for me, but it felt good at the same time. I am very happy that we went while I felt like I had the energy and it definitely showed me that I have a bit of work to do to get back to where I was last Fall. I will get there, not pushing it just little by little.

Bone pain is starting to flare up from my Neulasta injection last night so I am resting tonight. I will get some more blog entries caught up when I can, too tired tonight.

I hope everyone had a safe and happy long weekend!! Love to you all! 💕

Experiences

Good News

July 6th, 2019

Mood: Excited 😄

Out and about with sweetie! I got some good news from my oncologist yesterday….this is my last Neulasta shot, no more bone pain….yay!

A few treatments in with Taxol my fatigue should disappear as well and Taxol will not effect my White Blood Cell count! I will still need to be cautious but I can resume a normal life for the most part…double yay!!

Experiences

3rd Chemo Treatment

June 20th, 2019

Mood: Normal 🙂

I had my 3rd chemo treatment today. They had a problem with my port but after letting some liquid sit in the line for about 30 minutes they were finally able to start my treatment.

I decided to be super brave and wear a wig to my treatment today….