Experiences

ER

May 31st, 2019

Mood: Scared 😟

I went to the ER at about 4:30am this morning. This chest pain is something I have never felt before, very intense, very scary. I don’t remember all of the details clearly but they started with a EKG. I have had a CT, blood tests, EKGs and everything is normal. They are trying to figure it out. The cardiologist will be seeing me next, doing a stress test.

***Update***
I am back home now. After all of the scans, EKGs, a CT, x-ray, etc, all coming back negative, they determined that my pain was caused by the chemo drugs. I am having my 2nd treatment next Thursday so we will talk to my oncologist and see if any changes need to be made.

Experiences

Surgery Follow-up

April 29th, 2019

Mood: Frustrated 😟

Today I went for my follow up appointment with my surgeon. He had good news and bad news….the good news is that he got all of the cancer out and my margins are clean. My surgery site is healing well and my drains will be taken out on Friday. The bad news is that all of the “suspicious” lymph nodes that he went ahead and removed during my surgery, all 18 of them, tested positive for cancer. So, I am now at Stage 3 due to the amount of cancer that was removed and I will need to have an “aggressive” chemo treatment plan. I don’t know exactly what he meant by that, but I will find out when I meet with my oncologist on Friday.

My surgeon is amazing…..after he gave me the bad news he continued to remind me that I am young, healthy and that my margins are clean, all very positive and important parts of my journey. He also made sure to remind me that once the chemo is over I will have my reconstructive surgery and he will “make my chest beautiful” again….that is his specialty and why he is the ideal breast cancer surgeon. 😁

Experiences

Rough Day

April 27th, 2019

Mood: Exhausted 😴

Today was a bit rough. I have been nauseous on and off. I have been a little irritable, mainly because I am tired of the bandages and drains. Matt has been wonderful with emptying my drains and recording the amount of icky, that’s a medical term you know…🤣, that has collected so we can give that information to my surgeon on Monday. I am barely collecting anything in the drains now, so I am hoping my bandages will get much smaller and the drains will be removed when we see him.

I am still going to sleep at random times even though I have substantially reduced the amount of painkillers I am taking. Besides a few moments of dozing off, today I took a long nap, almost 2 hours and I was shocked when I woke up at almost 9pm.

I have received a few messages from people that want me to call them back. Please give me time as I am resting and sleeping as much as I can and a phone conversation can wear me out. I am updating on here as I can….Love you all! 💕

Experiences

2nd Biopsy

March 20th, 2019

Mood: Frustrated 😕

The biopsy was pretty easy all things considered, but the recovery has been rough so far. I am badly bruised and in decent pain. I thought about taking pictures but it is just too horrific. It looks like my breast has been beat up as it is black and blue from the top to all the way underneath it.

The results should be in on Friday or so, but I am not stupid enough to think that the mass isn’t cancer…I am sure it is. 😔