August 15th, 2019
Mood: Frustrated 😥
Taxol #5 out of 12!
We adjusted my meds again hoping that it will solve my sleeping issues. They mixed the Steroids and Benadryl together in one bag and gave them to me over 45 minutes….it didn’t help. I spent the night tossing and turning, ending up with about 2 1/2 hours of sleep. I can’t keep doing this week after week…
Friday was a disaster due to my lack of sleep. Matt had a bad day and I was emotionally exhausted, depressed, frustrated and just generally pissy so we argued. When he got home I apologized for my behavior and so did he. He understands that this part of the treatment is very hard on me in every way and that from time to time I am going to be at my worst.
I hate it though….not being myself.